sex warehouse

1. I'm 25 and I've had sex with two people. I've kissed 6ish.

1. Like most boys, I discovered the joys of masturbation when I was around 11. Stole porn mags from Dad and older brothers. Mother yelling through bathroom door as to why I am taking such long showers and in an old hay barn loft down the road were common scenarios of my youth.
2. At 45, I am masturbating now more then I did as a teenager. On one hand, that is good because it is in spite of being on blood pressure & diabetic meds that are suppose to dampen my libido. I attribute it to taking up jogging and exercising that last 2-3 years. On the other hand I have been married 11 years and the wife has lost all desire for sex.
3. I lied all my life as to when I first had sex. I always had a story as to when I was 17, but I was actually 21 and in the Navy at the time. I was quite drunk but remember it still. Mostly because of the first experience of going down on the girl and her being “not so fresh” that I had to keep from gagging. I was a trooper though and kept with it. It was miracle that I developed a taste for it eventually, but it was many years later that I did.
4. On a whim, mostly because I was in rut, as I had no particular predilection for nudity, I went with a work friend to a nudist resort. It forever changed what I found most attractive in women. From then on my top criteria was women who were ok with their naked body. That’s it. Didn’t matter what they looked like, what size, just being comfortable in their own skin. That narrows the field considerably because I have met so many with various hang-ups about their body.
5. Years in the Navy did not really afford me much experience. A few one night stands here and there, prostitutes in foreign lands, but no relationships to speak of till I got out. I have had only 2 relationships. A girlfriend for 3-4 years after I got out of the Navy and the wife now of 11 years. It was the girlfriend who taught me to be a lover. Control, taking it slow, working up to it were among the lessons and I have thanked her since. She broke up with me after I had given permission for her to sleep with another when I was out of town. Made me regret that decision but I did get solace when she said it was the single biggest mistake of her life.
6. The proceeding years from when I was in my early 30s, I moved to a new state and was once again back to irregular one night stands. The dawn of internet and AOL contributed to some of my success in getting laid. I had more confidence in myself but I never slept with anyone more than once. I always felt guilty afterwards because I knew I did not have feelings for them and I was afraid they might get feelings for me. It was at a party that I had met my future wife. She was with someone else at the time but the sole thing that really attracted me to her was the ease with which we talked for hours. That was the spark.
7. The first few years of marriage the sex was great. She had lived as a lesbian for many years so there was many adventures we had. The ones with other couples were not very good overall, but a couple threesomes, M-F-F were very good, despite that I was banned from screwing another girl in front of her because she could not handle that. Much of the great sex was fueled by drugs though, and as such, they could not last. As the drugs were put aside so the sex faded away over a few years.
8. Porn. I had a computer when the internet was just starting and what did you use it for? Porn, of course. I went through periods where I just liked to see everything, no matter how extreme. Scat, watersports, BDSM, gay, animals, etc. Not that I was necessarily turned on, as it was just to satisfy curiosity. These days I really only peruse only a couple sites, one with true amateurs where they send in pics of their wives and girlfriends. I especially like to see those 35 and older, no matter what shape they are in, though it makes me jealous and hurt that I don’t have a partner that wants sex. It helps me picture woman naked which I do ALL the time. The other porn I like is spanking. More on that later.
9. I like to eat pussy. I never had the bad experience like the first time again. In fact, I would say all the ones I had were real clean, even too clean. I like some muskiness as it goes straight to my cock. Times that I wanted to go down on girlfriend or wife after they had done some sweaty activity was always turned down as it always grossed them out. I think that is largely a universal thing with women.
10. I have no hang-ups about gay/bi sex. I have tried it. Sucking cock does not do anything for me but receiving certainly beats jacking off. It's been many years, but I think it's an option as there is no chance man will get emotionally attached about it and from looking online, there are a bunch of married guys out there using that option because they are not getting it at home.
11. Have had the wife and girlfriend anally before. I liked it a lot but to be honest it is more a mental thing than the sensation. Can’t beat pussy. Have also received with strapon/dildo. I liked that too if in the right mood. I tended to be more submissive in the early days but that has changed 180.
12. I try not to pressure the wife about sex but I think it comes out that way after a couple months. I don’t blame her as I know it is mostly because of her medication. She has suggested before, half jokingly, that maybe I should look elsewhere, as long as she never knows about it.
13. I have cheated with 2 different girls in the last 12 years marriage. Couple times with a girl from work. I finally succumbed after over a year she was hitting on me. I regret that, but she never had multi orgasms before. All I really did was pay attention to her needs. The wand didn’t hurt either.
14. The other one I cheated with was my ex-girlfriend. We seem to find each other every few years and give each other what we are need of and don’t get otherwise. I can’t bring myself to regret and not just because it was the best sex I ever had.
15. I believe there is truth that one looks for one’s mother’s traits when seeking a mate. My mother was very forward and definitely had her own opinion on things despite having grown up in a male dominated society. Having all male siblings, we were raised to cook/clean and take care of our selves and never expect a woman to do so. I gravitated towards strong-willed women as a result and the relationships I had, we were always equals, at least in the beginning.
16. As I ended up taking on more and more responsibility within the marriage my ideas changed. Out of frustration and brainstorming ways to hold her accountable to doing her share of chores, I stumbled upon the idea of domestic discipline. I was utterly fascinated with the idea of the willing wife, submitting, especially for the spanking part, though I also understood the immense responsibility you take on with this lifestyle.
17. What I also found fascinating exploring some for the domestic discipline sites was that for the majority of couples, it was the female who wanted the lifestyle and they often had to talk their mates into it. I had no such luck and have given up really trying because I realize it is something that has to be willingly given, not coerced. I still believe I am worthy and deserving of my “propers,” as I like to say. I still secretly hope for that one time, that one opportunity should it arise because I honestly believe it would really help her.
18. If I was single now, there is no doubt in my mind that I would have to have a “head of household” type relationship. I suspect I would be lonely for awhile, but then again, after reading here and other places, there seems to be a real desire for the type of men who are comfortable being in charge and know what they want.
19. Though most all my fantasies involve older, average looking women, I do sometimes have a fantasy of teaching sex to a younger, early 20s, shy, homely girl. I think I would be a great, patient teacher.
20. I wish the idea of “friends with benefits” was more prevalent back in the day. I wonder what it would it would be like to have a polyamory relationship. That fantasy only coincides with me winning the lottery fantasy.
21. If I had to pick one part of the anatomy I like best, it would be the butt. I love all things about it. I love to squeeze it, hug it, lick it, spank it, etc., etc.
22. I used to fantasize that I would take a list of all fetishes and such and just work my way down the list whether or not I like them or not just to say that “yeah, I did that.”
23. I usually masturbate watching videos on the computer. Sometimes in the bed, even when the wife is sleeping. Every once in awhile I put a small dildo in my bum and put the wand vibrator against it. That’s always a toe curler.
24. Water and swimming, especially in the ocean, has the side effect of making me horny later. Not sure why, but it is still true today as it was when I was 9.
25. I actually now fantasize about my wife these days. I never used to do that.

This is my second posting from a moving train. Today's journey is taking me from Montreal through Toronto and then on to Windsor, where Vince from Still Point Zen Center in Detroit will take me across the border. Zero Defex is playing tomorrow at a place in Detroit called The Comet. We haven't played together in a year. The rest of the guys have been rehearsing without me and I've been practicing on my own. So we should be fine.

The last gig Zero Defex played in Detroit is written up in gory detail in Hardcore Zen. The main things I recall are frozen feet and carbon monoxide. There were at least three bands and assorted fellow travelers packed into an Econoline van along with a drum kit, a half dozen guitars and some amplifiers, all rolling aro0und on top of each other to make the 6 hour journey from Akron to Detroit. The van had rust holes all over the place that allowed the exhaust fumes to seep inside until all of us were woozy. I heard a story later that the Nazis designed a van quite similar to this to kill Jews even before they reached the concentration camps.

It was the dead of winter and freezing cold. I was probably in a pair of Converse High Tops. I don't know for sure. But anyway they were thin and inadequate and my feet froze up. As soon as we got into the venue -- a club known as The Freezer! -- my frozen feet started to swell up from the warmth and itched like crazy. I had to take off my shoes and let them cool back down by walking barefoot on the frigid concrete of The Freezer's floor.

Then our start time kept getting pushed later and later to accommodate Negative Approach who suddenly decided they needed to play a set even though they weren't on the bill. I hated them for years because of that. This was really bad for us because we were set to drive back to Ohio that same night and wouldn't even get on the road until something like three in the morning. We survived, though.

Hopefully tomorrow night's gig will go even better.

Now the train I'm riding is in Brockville. Don't go back to Brockville!

I had a terrific time in Montreal, which becomes more like home every time I go. Linda Dydyk and her husband Bogdan played host. I loved them both and all of their cats. They live in NDG, a very cool part of the city. Montreal is covered in graffiti. Some of it is quite good. Most of it sucks ass. But you could say the same about the other forms of advertising that decorate the buildings.

I got interviewed by the CBC twice, by CJAD once, by The Mirror and by WatchMojo.com. On the CBC I was harassed by a Hare Krishna caller who wanted to warn the audience of the dangers of the impersonal and abstract philosophy of Buddhism. I guess I asked for that cuz I said how I hadn't been very engaged in their philosophy. It's nuts, I tell ya! Actually, it's just old-time religion with a blue god who screws hot Indian babes instead of a white god who shoots lightning bolts. But their food is terrific.

The CBC interviewer mentioned local hero Leonard Cohen and the rumor that when he flies overseas he spends 13 hour plane flights seated in meditation. She asked if I did that. I told her that Leonard Cohen probably flies first class where the seats are roomy enough to do that. I always fly coach.

Wow. We just passed a field in which stood a giant turkey fanning his tail feathers. Life is good.

I talked with a lot of people. Went out with my friend Maya to see a punk rock show. Went to eat Indian food with Thibault, the guy who got me my first gig in Montreal. That was in 2005 when I spoke at Casa del Popolo. I was there again and it was fun. I did my acoustic version of "Drop the A-Bomb on Me" to end the show and opened with a solo version of "God Part III" from Dimentia 13's Flat Earth Society album (1990). In between I got a lot of good questions and did my best to answer them. The first one was, "Can Buddhists jack off?" So you know it was a very cool audience.

I met the Chinese/Japanese girl from Montreal who I wrote about in my current book and her new boyfriend. I was happy and sad at the same time. They seem very good for each other. So that's OK, he said silently holding back a single tear.

I spent hours talking to a beautiful mysterious film maker who didn't want to talk very much. She was super cool but I should have shut up. I spent more hours talking to a beautiful bubbly journalist who told me about vandalizing locker rooms and puking multicolored Gatorade puke. I like Canada.

I met a woman who writes a blog called Full Contact Enlightenment that she says trashes me. She was nice. I haven't been able to get the blog to load up yet. The wireless on this train is free but, like I said, oh so slow. I met a guy who wanted to hypnotize me, but I didn't have time. Or maybe he secretly hypnotized me while we were talking and I am now doing his bidding! I met some students at Dawson who played "Oh Darling!" from Abbey Road on guitar and asked great Zen questions.

I visited the used book stores of the city and picked up a couple of old books about sci-fi films that I didn't have. And a copy of the Battlefield Earth DVD for 4$ Canadian. Battlefield Earth is a bad movie classic that must be seen to be understood and appreciated. I bought a red hoodie with a maple leaf on the breast.

We're passing now though wheat fields, past rusted cars and cows. The train is shakier out here than it is in the city, but we're moving faster.

Whenever I give a talk, a bunch of people come up afterward to chat. And that's fine. But I think maybe from now on I'm going to go out and try to talk to people who don't line up to chat. I think they might have stuff to say as well.

All the Detroit gigs are listed on the link to your left. So if you're in town, please show up at Still Point.<<<<<<

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p/s: Wanted to put Plastizilla's face as the enemy but decided on Godzilla instead - look more pleasant.

Take a look at this article from the Canadian National Post. When I read the opening paragraphs I was like, "Man that guy gets a lot of action! I wish I got that much!"

It's funny how things seem when you read them as opposed to when you actually live through them. It's like when John Lennon started taking heat for his statement that The Beatles were bigger than Jesus. He said something like, "When I said Beatles I wasn't really thinking of us. I was thinking of those other Beatles, the ones that get in the papers all the time." I totally get that. It really does feel that way to me these days. I have no idea who this Brad Warner person people are getting all worked up about is. He sounds like a dick to me!

I wonder if I would even like "Brad Warner" if I wasn't Brad Warner. I think I'd probably be all aloof to him. Like I wouldn't even pay attention. That's how I was when Nirvana was big. These days I realize how great they were. I probably would have realized it even then if I'd bothered to listen. But they were so huge I just felt like they already had enough listeners. Besides, my bands had done that stuff five or ten years earlier and nobody had paid attention. Granted maybe we weren't doing it quite as well. But there were no innovations in Nirvana's music that I hadn't been associated with years before. I guess I mostly hated when people acted like Nirvana had invented everything.

Wow. That was a tangent!

Anyway, I'm not sure I'm anywhere near "the most visible Zen teacher in North America" as the article says. I'm not invisible, I guess. I'm still working on the serum for that.

I gotta run. I'll be at Casa del Popolo in Montreal tonight. Details are linked over there to your left. It should be a fun show. People drink beer there! I don't talk Zen to people drinking beer very often.

Oh! Fun facts you should know about Canada:

• The beer here is stronger than US beer. I'm not a drinker, but I'll have a beer every now and again (6 or 7 beers a year possibly). So I discovered this the hard way. I have an extremely low tolerance for alcohol and went over my very low limit (about 1 and a half in the US is enough to get me totally wasted) much faster than I expected. I'm going Straight Edge for the rest of the tour.

• The Sunday funnies are published in the Saturday paper! Weird!

I'll try to think of more fun Canada facts for next time.

And you Detroiters don't forget the Zero Defex gig May 1st. See the flyer to your left!

I am doomed lor I am starting to blog this picture post at 7am (haven't slept) and there are 156 pictures!

I'm gonna try not to put too many words in.




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KK and her bf wanted a puppy so she took me to the Seletar puppy mill... The living conditions for both humans (humans there sleep in same room as dogs on thin mattresses - can you say stinky?!) and dogs there is really horrible! It's like not a part of Singapore man!

The stud is from the mill and it's mad dirty-looking lah. The old man works there and he isn't too clean either.

But overall, I'd say the mill is not as bad as people often describe lah. You can drive there and see if you want! Seletar farmway.

Anyway... The photo is of two malteses fucking, obviously. The bottom is someone's pet. As you can see it's much better groomed.

I'm becoming one of those annoying animal lover people because I'm quite irritated that the owner would want his dog to give birth.

Doesn't he know that birth could have serious consequences and could possibly even KILL his dog? Why would anyone who love their pets knowingly make their pets die younger?!

But well... His dog.




The irony. My old Canon Ixus taking a photo of my new Lumix.

And doing a shit job of it too.

Well goodbye! I'm never gonna have problems with macro shots again.

It's like poetic justice that the last batch of photos the Ixus takes will be that of the great Lumix.


Before blinging, I apply white nail polish to the black leather strip to make the background colour even.









Yums steak with a tub of sauce that Eekean said is soy sauce mixed with wine. Nonetheless, it's great! Nicer than brown sauce anyway.






(OK I couldn't take it and fell asleep at this point so I'm continuing this blog entry at 7.19pm, 27th April)



Had dinner with Shuyin and her relatives.

That's her little sister taking a pic of our food.

These pro photographers are always like taking photos of other photographers wielding SLRs lah!! Now I'm like a pro photographer too MUAHAHAHA!


(In case you noticed, this is indeed the same place as the one I went to with Eekean a few days ago. Some economic Italian restaurant at Liang Court. It's Shuyin who wanted to eat there!!)

Proceed upstairs to KTV!!



And we surprise Shuyin with it when she comes back from the toilet!! (She went for mad long... All the candles melted and we believe she must have lao-sai-ed. OK lah to be fair the toilet is damn far away. But still!)


Lao niang was delegated to cut the cake because Huifen said that superstition dictates whoever's birthday is next must cut the cake for luck.


PK was an instant hit with all the girls there man. Now everyone wants a yorkie and they all think that all yorkies are this size and won't bark. Hahahaha!



For his birthday Ming's parents gave him a little model of a VW Golf GTI.

He looked quizzically at them until he saw the papers inside. That's just a tiny model of the real thing he is getting!!

Sigh... Why isn't anyone giving me the Copen I want??




I don't even like Chanel's designs very much but this one is like purplish-pink and super shiny!!!


A Bangawan Solo birthday cake may not seem very romantic to most but it feels extra special to me because the brand feels so Singaporean and it reminds me of how Mike gave up his life in USA to come live here with me.

That day I asked him if he knew what Prima Deli is and he said no, so I told him they make pies and pastries. Then he replied, "Oh, is it like Polar?"

Very cute right!!

Then dinner at our favourite restaurant:


I'm gonna be really annoying and not tell you where it is because I am terrified that the place would be flooded with customers and the standard will then drop. If you already know good for you!!