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Happy New Year!

Hope your year is wonderful. I'm busy doing a half-assed version of 大掃除, which is pronounced "oh-so-ji"and means "big cleaning." It's something you do on New Year's in Japan. You clean up every damn thing in the house. I'm not going quite that far, but I'm doing some special cleaning tonight. Which is why this is gonna be short.

Today I finally watched Sike Sillanpää's film "Hardcore Zen Tour," a 30 minute documentary about my tour of Finland this summer. I'm really impressed. Sike followed me around almost 24/7 while I was in Finland this August filming every damned thing I did. He cut the footage into a 30 minute piece that he is trying to get exhibited in Finnish TV and elsewhere. I really love it.

For those of you who wondered, we will have our regular Zazen thing at Hill Street Center on Saturday, January 2nd starting at 10 am. The complete info on how to get there and all that is at the link over to your left that says Weekly Zazen Classes on Saturday Mornings (or just click on those very words in this very sentence).

I'm guessing we won't have a lot of people this coming Saturday. But for those of you who do show up, as a special treat I will show the movie! So be there if you wanna see it.

OK. Gotta go now.

...and says so over at the Review of Arts, Literature, and the Philosophy of the Humanities. "Live Nude Girl is intriguing, as much for the insights into clothed vs. unclothed as for the occasional throw-aways. For instance, she tells us that Paul Weston, with his stunning photographs of nudes 'made some of his subjects look like vegetables'," she says. You can check out the whole review here. Thanks, Lolita.

Decided to put on some blusher, lipstick, and dot some fake freckles on to camwhore with the new camera!!

Three pictures only lah... I think not bad though! I like my L10 more now! Please stop saying shit about it!


Think the fake freckles a bit fail but still, must try new things!!!

Lower lashes are drawn on (except in last picture, forgot to put), top lashes are extensions. Not wearing contacts. Photoshopped brown. And yes I know the left eye's lashes are drooping. I need to get them fixed!

Off to play mahjong! :D

AKA BE A Slut (But Like Different Than Usual) Day


My mom let me take her to work this morning so I could keep her car. I had it all planned out: I was going to ho around in the house for a bit before I headed back to the video store in Raleigh (yeah, I know - big surprise). A younger, thick black dude with stretch marks and an average penis (but cute enough face) came by the house a little before 9a. It was clear that he had trimmed down, but he still had at least 20 pounds to go. Still, I enjoyed kissing those full lips and eventually inviting him upstairs to the bed where there'd be more room to mess around. Not too much to tell. We 69'd a while before he kneeled over my head asked "where do you want this cum?" "Where do you want to cum?" "It doesn't matter, man." "Then I want it on my face." And that's where I got it. When he left, I showered and futzed around until it was time to head to the Capital News Adult Video Store.

I intended to arrive there right at 12n. However, I got there closer to 1p. The parking lot was full. Unfortunately, it appeared that the crowd was largely much older and out of shape. But I had several hours (exactly 3 before I had to leave and pick my mom up from work at 5). I would be patient and chill. As I expected, my first hook came from showing off in a booth. This Latin-looking guy invited me over. He definitely wasn't my type (short and round with a 2 inch dick - I'm not even kidding). Still, I was on a mission. He was a lot more into kissing me than I was into kissing him. While I was sucking him, he took a few hits of poppers. He asked if I'd stick my finger in his ass while I sucked him, but I said, "umm, I don't really want to stick my finger in your ass." Then he wanted me to fuck him and I said, "I'm not really a top. It won't stay hard." I totally shot twice that morning before I even went to sleep after 2a (GODDAMIT XTUBE)! That coupled with the fact that he wasn't doing much for me, Mr. Softy was in full effect. Not to be deterred, he asked "so you like to get that ass fucked?" Mmm hmm. The first time he tried it (bare), it kinda hurt. So I lubed my hole with the small container of Albolene I'd brought along and we tried again. This time that little dick felt right at home. He was standing with his back to the wall and was pulling me into him. After a few minutes, he was asking if I wanted him to cum up my butt. I did. He complied. On to the next.

This is actually where it got interesting. I don't normally play in the dark cubby holes. I like to see who I'm sucking. However, I made eye contact with this slim, cute black guy around my height and age with dreads who had headed back there. When I turned the corner, it was just the two of us back there. The silhouette of his dick was already out and he was waiting for me. When I reached down to grab it, it was thick and, by my measurements, 7.5"c-8"c. We stroked each other for a while before I sat in the only plastic chair and went to sucking. It only took about 1 minute for a group to form around us. Within another minute or so, I had several dicks surrounding me. I couldn't suck them all...well, not at once anyway. Luckily I didn't have to service them all alone. Most everyone was multitasking by sucking and stroking at the simultaneously. I think there was only one really thickly hung black dude who only got sucked. The Latino who blew his load in my ass had been bent over sucking the black guy for over 15 minutes before he gave up. I knelt in front of him to investigate. Even soft, it filled my mouth. To get him good and boned, I sucked and licked his balls. He was kinda tall, but even from way up there I heard a few moans escape him. To give you an idea of the heft of that dick: While I was sucking on his balls with his sack laying on my nose, his cockhead was resting in my faux hawk. In a few minutes, I was tasting ball gravy.

A few minutes earlier, I had been deep-throating Dread Boy. On every thrust forward with my face, his beautiful upcurved dick snaked into my nasal passage. I wanted that dick in my ass SO bad, but I don't ask for bareback when I don't know where guys stand on the subject. It didn't really matter because his bitter jizz was flooding my mouth soon anyway.

A brief note on the subject of Spooge Flavoring: green leafy foods - bad; citrus and chocolate - good. Got it? Put it to practice.

There were several other bones that made their way into my mouth and throat before I quite literally had to extricate myself from the writhing mass of horny dudes. When it comes to dick, I have this one mantra: They're all mine! Which is precisely why I decided to zip up and head back out into the light to see what fresh meat might've arrived. After about 30-40 minutes or so in and out of the booths, I decided to go back and spend my last half hour or so back in the dark area. Once again, there was only one other guy back there (black, hung, too much belly, no match for my oral skills - muahahahahahahahaha). Soon, there was another large-ish group sucking and stroking again. By the time this dude came in my mouth, I just couldn't swallow another load for fear of vomiting. So I spat it into my hand (big load) and threw it onto the floor. (Um, that might've been my own pant leg). Dread Head was back and hard as ever. This time, he was bent over sucking a dude's hog. His firm, round ass was right in my face. I nibbled his cheeks, then took the plunge and tongued a HUGE, wet dollop of spit right into the center of his pussy. Thank God it didn't taste bad. (I took a leap of faith).

When he got tired of sucking the dude standing in front of him, he wordlessly moved me around face to face with that dick. I immediately felt why he got tired. Even the piss slit in this dick felt like I could stick my pinky finger in it. And I should know. I've actually had my pinky in a piss hole recently. (It's weird). I let him throat fuck me with his hands on both sides of my head for a while, but I needed that juicy dick inside me. I moved my ass around to let him know what I wanted. He pressed the fat head up to my hole. I immediately felt like the guy sitting on the commode filing his nails with a piece of that horrible Second Generation recycled toilet paper: "This is gonna hurt." I lubed my hole with a few fingers. He grabbed my waist and had to fuck his way into me inch by inch. I didn't know how much I could take, but he never did get the whole thing in. It wasn't unbearable, but it definitely did NOT go right in. I was standing chest to chest with Dread Head, my arms wrapped around his neck for support as I was getting pummeled. The force was slamming me into DH. The 3 other black guys standing around the 3 of us got completely subsumed by the heat of our fucking, even though no one else physically joined in.

The onlookers were one by one getting more and more verbal. "How's that dick?" "Yeah, take that fucking dick." "Fuck him." "Nutt in that ass." I had to pull off his dick once. It seemed like he was getting close to shooting, but it was clear he had no intention of being a One Minute Man. What sent him over the edge was my screaming. Everytime I yelled out, he'd get that much more turned on and increase the punishment on my prostate. My dick was so soft, but I swear I had to make an effort not to shoot. It felt so good. Also, I hate cumming first. Finally, I sensed the Moment of No Return for him, but I just couldn't take his fucking anymore. At this point, I know I could be heard a few rooms over. It was a test of wills. I wanted his nutt inside me, but he was deliciously stretching and abusing my hole...a lot. At the exact moment I pulled away, he was shooting a wad like gangbusters. Some got inside me, while the rest was running down my leg. A quick check of the time indicated that I had to leave right then if I was going to get my mom on schedule. I went to the bathroom to clean up quickly. When I came out, the guy who had just shared his DNA with me was heading in after me. He smiled sheepishly and waved. While he was fucking me, he kept telling me I had some good ass. I know.

I'm sporting more facial hair now than I am in the pic above and waaaaay less makeup.

Nacho Vidal: One of my favorite straight porn actors

Tim Tales

Just bought a new DSLR yesterday at $1,200!!!

(From this point on I shall refer to my DSLR as SLR coz I can't be bothered with the D and nobody really buys SLRs anyway don't be nitpicky and stupid)

Welcoming the Lumix L10 to the family! Which includes just another Lumix, the awesome LX3. Oh and my lousy blackberry camera. LOL

Ok here's why I bought it.

I've been wanting to get a good camera for a long time now, especially coz whenever I do advertorials that require camwhoring, I realised that it's super duper hard when I am alone at 3am at night shooting myself!!!

The pictures I post are of course the best of the lot so you don't realise how utterly horrific the others are.

Here's the embarrassing way I do it:

I put the LX3 on a tiny $3.90 (from mustafa) tripod, and precariously balance that tripod on my swivel chair.

Then I sit on the floor in front of my cupboards (to make a nicer background), and I turn on the self-timer. Then I smile like an idiot for 10 seconds.

It is extra loserish coz i'm like trying to act sultry/chic/funny whatever at 3am while alone in my room with some products.

The first few photos will have me half out of frame, or funny objects in the background, or the product out of the frame.

It's really incredibly frustrating and a totally waste of time.

I know these problems still have nothing to do with an SLR, but I'm getting there.



So one day, I saw that Lumix has an SLR...


DIGRESSING!! That Lumix I was talking about is an SLR only loosely speaking. It's a micro four thirds.

Confusing right? BLOODY PHOTOGRAPHY JARGON. Wait, I'll explain in simple terms.

I asked this simple question that day on twitter and all I got were photography jargon. WHAT IS AN SLR???

Or rather, what makes an SLR QUALIFY to be an SLR?

Is it weight? Coz they sure are all heavy. Is it ugliness of the camera? Coz most of them are really hideous too.

But no.

It's 2 things:

1) SLR = Single Lens Reflex. I'm gonna be corrected by photography know-it-alls, but basically this refers to a mirror inside the camera which reflects what your lens is capturing into the viewfinder (thing people put their eye at in the past. Remember film cameras??)

2) SLRs have removeable lens. You can buy new lens and fix them on the, erm, camera. Is it still a camera if it doesn't have lens? Don't ask me.


End of digression!!



So basically that day I saw a Lumix, and it's only loosely called an SLR coz they removed the mirror thingy to make the camera smaller. But same functionality lah.

This Lumix is RED!! A nasty, brownish red. But red nonetheless among black cameras!!

For those shutterbugs who do know, this camera is the Lumix G1.

So I asked the salesperson to let me take a look. He seems to be pretty friendly so I thought I'd give it a try and CAMWHORE!!!

Took the camera up, was ready to snap when the salesman said, "Hold on, see, you can do this, much easier!"


AND THE FELLOW SNAPPED THE SCREEN OPEN TO FACE ME!!



It took about 5 secs for me to realise how much easier this will make my life and I erupted into tears of joy!!

So, at that point, I decided one of the criteria for my SLR will be to have a swivel screen!

One of the best inventions EVER or what?

So.

After a lot of research, came to the conclusion that the only newer SLRs with swivel screens were Panasonic G1, Gh1 and Nikon D5000.

And out of these, the GH1 is the chioest. Comes in GOLD:



Still ugly coz the sides of the lens are still black but a vast improvement nonetheless.

Combined with the fact that I LOVE the soft skin mode function on my LX3 (checked and it's available on the GH1), I decided on the GH1.




Couldn't sleep. Dreamt all night of the GH1. Reached Sim Lim in uber excitement. Found a shop that sells it.

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BUT IT WAS $2,230.


Good god.

I almost fainted. (And just for comparison other SLRs are as cheap as $699)

The only reason why it's so expensive is that it's "HD" lens and it can take HD video, which I honestly cannot give two hoots about. So high quality for what I'm also not shooting MTV! That and that it can zoom pretty far, which I also don't care about! I wanna use it to camwhore!

I just couldn't bring myself to pay so much extra for something I didn't need. It's $1,000 more than other equally-good-for-photography SLRs!


So. Very disappointed and confused.

Shopkeeper introduced me to the L10, which is about 1 year old and one of the last Lumix SLRs to use Leica lens!

(Leica lens are famous for being mad awesome)

The newer Lumix SLRs stopped using Leica lens... I presume coz it's too expensive? GH1 doesn't use Leica lens.


The L10 is a lot bigger, and black, and sadly enough no soft skin mode coz it's not invented yet, but selling for $1,200.

The cheapest standalone Leica lens in the shop were selling for $1,300, so I thought it's a pretty good deal!

He also assured me Leica lens take better photos (this part wins the Nikon D5000), so I was already half convinced.

On top of that he took a photo for me OF me in the shop and it's MAD chio!! SO I BOUGHT IT!!!

Too bad that picture is in the shop's SD card.



But soo far... Not too impressed with it. The flash, hoisted on top of the camera, casts a shadow on the bottom frame of photos coz it's blocked by the lens, which are too long!

And lao niang's surely not gonna change lenses coz my lens is a good one!! I guess I'd have to buy one of those external flashes but I don't want it too bright either! Grrrr why like this?

I have not camwhored with it yet so I dunno lah... Maybe it would take awesome photos of me, which is the MOST important. LOL. I'm lazy to put make up to take pics lah!

Here are some sample shoots I randomly took of things in the house:


Mike disbelieving my "flash casting a shadow" theory, somehow testing it out with his leg. LOL... Sexy!


Learnt a nifty little photoshop trick from Priscilla (I can never spell this name) that's why the colours are so mad chio!!! The original photos don't look like that but I hate posting ugly pics so there.

How do you think the photos compare to the LX3's?

1. I just turned 20 and I am still a total virgin.

2. I don't meet any of the virgin girl stereotypes: I'm not religious, I don't have moral issues with sex, I'm not unattractive and I get hit on a lot. I have a bit of a bad girl reputation with my smoking/drinking/swearing, so people tend to assume I'm pretty experienced. I always have trouble discussing my virginity.

3. Like I have inhibitions about discussing sex, I've always had a lot of inhibitions about actually having it. Every time I've had a chance to hook up, I've either turned it down or chickened out.

4. I used to think this was because I was asexual, but I don't think I am. I think I'm just afraid of intimacy.

5. Due to this fear, I suppose, I've only had one real boyfriend. We never went further than hand-up-the-shirt, but for some reason I feel gross about having him touch me when I didn't really like him that much.

6. Despite all this - I feel like my virginity is a burden, and I have a horrible fear of being a virgin forever. Weird dilemma, right? Sometimes I wish I could just fast-forward through sex and get it over with so I'd be deflowered and done with it.

7. I'm also intimidated by the sexual expectations for women these days. We have to look smokin' hot, work it on top, give great blowjobs. What's a poor virgin girl to do? 'Lie back and think of England' seems almost charming in comparison.

8. I've concluded that I need to lose my virginity in a one-night stand while exceedingly drunk. I have standards, though - the guy has to be 1) attractive and 2) very considerate. Couple these with my lack of time to party, and it may be a long time.

9. There probably won't be blood the first time, either - I popped my cherry as a kid during gymnastics.

10. I have zero interest in porn. I have given it a try, but I find it either laughable or boring.

11. I am rarely interested in my hand, either. Maybe I am less sexual than normal.

12. Or maybe it's just my weird concepts of sexuality. I am very, very attracted to male dominance. Sometimes I feel guilty about this like it makes me a bad feminist.

13. On top of that, my interests hold for nothing egalitarian in the bedroom. I have no desire to receive oral sex, be on top, or play the dominatrix. I'd rather the man be in charge of everything and I like the idea of mock rape, bondage, masochism, submission. Horrible feminism, right? But we can't change our desires.

14. Even though my tastes run along the BDSM spectrum, I can't imagine myself ever being part of the fetish community. While I respect them with all my heart, something about it - the crazy vinyl outfits, the public shows and discussions, the rules - seems very comical to me, and that ruins all the fun.

15. I feel like I'm not sexually liberated enough to be a modern feminist woman. But would it really be liberation if I forced myself to do something simply for its own sake?

16. I'm jealous of 'liberated' women - strippers, burlesque dancers, sex-worker advocates, feminist porn writers. They all have something I don't, and sometimes I feel like I'm their enemy - like I'm a repressed woman, giving in to the patriarchy. But, like I said - we can't change our desires.

17. Sometimes I wonder if I'm the only straight girl who doesn't have bi-curious impulses. All my female friends have/want to 'experiment', even with me, but I've never had any interest in it. I think girls are attractive, but it's a purely aesthetic thing.

18. Though, once I had a dream where I was making out with Greta Garbo. It was hot.

19. I have a mad passion for sexy lingerie. I love thigh high stockings, garter belts, frilly panties, corsets. I also secretly adore skanky stripper shoes and thigh-high boots.

20. I think penises are kind of ugly. But I like them as a symbol of power.

21. Power is the sexiest thing in the world. I have had several crushes on bosses and profs. I tend to go for older men, too, so it's a horrible double-whammy. I never act on my impulses, though - there's too much that can go wrong.

22. The only thing as sexy as power? A nice foreign accent.

23. I am very attracted to SS uniforms. Not only are they the most attractive military uniform, but the SS officer is the pinnacle of male dominance and power - and German accents are hot. I think this is a horrible, horrible thing to be attracted to, and I feel very, very guilty about it. But, once again - we can't change our desires.

24. What we do have control over, however, is our choices. I have chosen to never, ever, ever watch The Night Porter.

25. I feel better having written about this, since I never discuss my sexuality in real life. Looking back on what I've written - it's probably a good thing.

1) I'm a 24 year old male and a 2 on the Kinsey scale.

2) I've slept with 12 women, two of whom I loved.

3) And one transgender person, who I loved as well.

4) I'm all about gender equality and so on but I'm afraid that, sexually, I'm pretty much a dominant straight guy, loosely defined, of course, but willing to accept queer as a label. Sometimes, I think my blandness is a failing but I know that's not going to change. Still, I'm uncomfortable with the privilege my heterosexual masculinity grants me.

5) I've never had a one-night stand. I've had a two-night stand, however, and I sometimes miss the fragility of that final day. She was an exchange student.

6) I was engaged once because that was the prerequisite for having sex in her father's house. She bought me a spinner engagement ring. She wanted babies. I did not. We were both 20 at the time and smarter than that. She has twins now and I am happy for her. She's a great mom. I will be a great dad for my future daughter (singular, gender non-negotiable).

7) I don't enjoy cunnilingus because I don't think I'm very good at it. I am, however, really good at rimming. I don't know if I am good because I enjoy it or if I enjoy it because I'm good at it.

8) I've been told multiple times that I have a beautifully shaped cock. It's about average in size (6) and girth (5.5) so I've never believed it whenever they've said it. Guess I'm not much of an aesthete.

9) I've never been in an orgy but I've fucked an ex in the same room as my best friend and my ex's best friend. It was pretty hot because my best friend and and I ended up syncing up on our thrusting. I thought it was really cool. Two best friends having sex with two best friends. Close enough to high five, though we didn't.

10) I could never be in an actual orgy. I'm too selfish and don't trust my partner to stay with me in a monogamous relationship afterward. I like monogamy. I'm lame like that. It might also be because I hate condoms and think behavior that makes condoms necessary isn't for me.

11) I prefer ass over tits but I think tits are more comforting.

12) The first orgasm I had was when I was 12 and I accidentally rubbed up against my bare mattress because the sheets were in the wash. I was very confused.

13) I have no fetishes to speak of. What attracts me sexually to a person varies and is always specific to that one person. I really wish I had a type I could narrow my tastes down to: "likes Native women with big tits, has a foot fetish and a thing for the harem girl look." I think it'd make me more normal and also, more interesting. I hate having to say "uhh" when I'm asked what I like or go for. This is a matter of great concern for my family who aren't comfortable with certain kinds of relationships. They're convinced that I'll break their heart with my eventual choice of mate, and I know I will.

14) Hmm, maybe #13's not entirely accurate re: fetishes. I have a thing for Hispanic accents/culture. I will quite literally sleep with any Brazilian Portuguese speaker, no matter how ugly, simply because of how they sound when they speak.

15) I've dated every major ethnicity but East Asian. And not for lack of trying. I think every man in my almost-majority-Asian West Coast hometown has dated an Asian woman, but somehow, they simply do not find me attractive. This depresses me. Why don't Asian women like me? This dating diversity thing has not been a conscious choice for me, but now it is something of a goal to bed an Asian girl.

16) The best blowjob I've received was on a Greyhound five minutes or so from the US-Canada border. We were returning from a metal concert (Katatonia/Agalloch) in Portland. I was terrified that I would not be allowed back into the country for being lewd or whatever. Finished up barely ten seconds before the lights were turned on. I came so hard it was embarrassing.

17) I think I would have been homophobic if my first girlfriend hadn't forbidden me from getting off on watching girls in porn. It almost tore us apart until I realized that trannies exist and were a convenient loophole. It took me about a year to be comfortable with that aspect of my sexuality. Still, it astounded me when I found myself in an actual relationship with a transgender person who was just starting out. In fact, the first time she ever stepped out of the house presenting female was with me. The first time either of us stepped into a gay bar was together. I didn't think I'd ever be that brave or that I would come to love someone not genetically female. It surprised a lot of people, ourselves included, what a natural couple we made. It also made me realize that most men who are attracted to the transgendered are, generally speaking, really, really sleazy and the scum of the gay community. I don't think I could be with another like her unless we connected the way she and I did. I don't know why I have that bar.

18) When my ex and I vacationed in a cabin in the woods a few years ago, we fucked 50 times in 4 days. I didn't think it was physically possible. We were aiming for 10 or 15 but we had nothing else to do as we were snowed in and I'd blown my pay check on the cabin itself and couldn't afford to go out. It was a really nice cabin.

19) My favorite thing to do is fall asleep inside my partner. Nothing matches that feeling of closeness. I also like it when I wake up before them and pull out ever so slowly. The look on their face when they wake up, that mix of shock and anger and pleasure and desire really turns me on.

20) I like laughter. I dislike sex that isn't, at its core at least, overtly good-humored and this is why I actively dislike dominant/submissive type relationships. I don't want to take away your control. I think any relationship that cannot find the humor in the bodies that make it up is not a relationship worth having. I want to feel awe at the human connection and laugh about it and feel happy.

21) I was kissed by my professor who is also a famous author during a one-on-one session that had to do with my work. I wasn't expecting the kiss (I thought it was a random unprovoked hug goodbye), nor had I expressed or received any prior indication of interest. I pulled away because it was inappropriate but I did say "Thank you" because the thought that I could possibly make a famous writer want me provided me with immense gratification.

22) I think I'm ugly and so take any expression of interest in me with a ton of gratitude. One of my best friends (who I tried to sleep with) told me that most people don't hit on me because I seem so confident in my skin that they presume I have a girlfriend or wouldn't be into them. Or it could be that I'm just that unattractive. Not grotesque or anything close to it, just far from the norm. I'm told I'm intimidating. They don't realize I pet stray kittens I meet. People who find this out often fall in love with me. I really want to be conventionally handsome.

23) I've let a couple of my friends use my bedroom to conduct their illicit sexual activities in. I feel sorry for people who have no place to fuck in. I'm nice like that.

24) I think it's strange how even though I hate having my picture taken in regular social settings, I'm completely comfortable with having my picture taken in a sexual setting. I'm also comfortable knowing that a couple of my exes have put those pictures up online. That said, I could never post any of the stuff on my camera online. For some reason, I think that's gross, as is taking my picture myself. Someone else better be doing the clicking.

25) A couple months ago, I was juggling three women. I didn't like the effect secrecy had on myself and my wallet. I did it because I felt like the world owed me for sticking with my last relationship which became a long-distance thing due to my move. I wouldn't do it again.

1) I believe I am pretty much omnisexual. I like sex with boys, girls, trans, queer (and maybe some things outside of the box...). But I identify as lesbian because, well, I'm too lazy to explain it all and I typically only 'date' women. But i can fuck anything.

2) I would love to be dominated, completely, just to experience it.

3) I can not submit to men, just can't...

4) I was once addicted to gay porn, and still rely on it occasionally.

5) I masturbate just to make myself tired enough to sleep most nights.

6) I don't think in one gender, and sometimes when I masturbate I visualize myself stroking my invisible cock.

7) My friends accuse me of being a 'furry' and I deny it, but to be honest, I have no idea.

8) I had a friend once who would get on his knees in front of me, look up, hands behind his back and quietly say "Please, command me, Mistress..." He was joking, but it gave me such a powerful surge I had to walk away.

9) I fully intend on exploring that side of me.

10) One of my sexual goals is to fuck a man in the ass with a strap-on.

11) I prefer virgins, or those less experienced than I am.

12) I would like to take the time to explore a man, but have only come across idiots so far, where once it all starts I wish it were over. I have better things to be doing than letting you borrow my vagina.

13) There was one man though, a gorgeous Puerto Rican truck driver. He wanted to explore. I didn't believe him and I think I kind of trashed that opportunity. I hope to run into him again. The experience was amazing, the only time I've actually enjoyed myself with a man.

14) I strive to fully satisfy my partner, blowing their mind and making their fantasies come true.

15) I really wish things like STDs didn't exist. If they didn't I would fuck many, many, many more people. (I'm often tempted to hit up strangers.)

16) I love giving anal. It makes me think my partner is very very slutty and it's arousing to me.

17) I hate shaving, and really like my legs when they are hairy. Yet I shave my armpits and trim my pubic area.

18) I love getting my boots shined and polished.

19) The smell of leather makes me wet.

20) I find camo to be very sexy, not sure why.

21) I love to dress up and roleplay.

22) I like keeping some clothes on during sex, it somehow feels naughtier.

23) It really freaks me out when girls completely shave their pubic area. It's not appealing to me. Besides, I like a little hair to nuzzle.

24) Cuddling after sex is mandatory.

25) Sex is always better when I love the person.

1) I am a 24 year old guy who considers himself straight, and I am currently single.

2) My earliest memory of masturbation would have been when I was around 12, I think. I remember my older female cousin coming over to stay and she had just jumped out of the shower, wearing nothing but a towel. I remember being curiously turned on, then touching myself later that night to that image. I have never told anyone this as I was and still am ashamed due to the fact she was my cousin.

3) My first sexual experiences were with my first long-term girlfriend. I lost my virginity at 16 (during a movie session at her house). The experience was a little unsettling due to the pain she went through and the awkwardness of both of us virgins grinding away not knowing what to do with our bodies. At the time we both thought it was pretty normal for us to have 'done it' and assumed a majority of our school friends had experienced sex, but a week later the rumour had spread that we'd had sex and it turned out we'd beaten all but one girl to the punch. We became known as 'the couple.'

4) We stayed in a long relationship (6 years) which finally broke up due to long distance and the fact I had cheated on her. I have since had only one other long term girlfriend (2 years) who I broke up with because I found myself wanting to date other people. I an currently single and hoping not to inflict any more pain on a girl wanting a relationship.

5) Because of this need to be single, I am sometimes brutally honest with what I'm looking for in any kind of sexual relationship. Some girls don't want just a fuck buddy and i'm fine with that, but I tell them up front to ensure I don't lead them on.

6) I always feel uneasy trying to hit on girls at nightclubs, and rarely if ever sleep with someone I've only recently met if they're drunk. I feel dirty and feel like I've taken advantage of her. They'll still come home with me, might stay in the same bed as me, but nothing will happen. This happens with me a lot.

7) Because the above happens a fair bit, my friends think I'm a bit of a smooth talking Casanova taking girls home all the time. I've only really had 18 months of singledom and I claim I've slept with 15 different women (including the two gfs) in order to save face. The number is closer to 7, I can't even remember as I've started to believe my own lies.

8) I tend to date 'princess types' but seem to have casual sex with people I really shouldn't. The list of people I shouldn't have had sex with includes ex-girlfriends' friends, people from work and ex-housemates. I also always seem to fantasize about my girlfriends' sisters when in relationships.

9) My deepest darkest secret is that given the chance, I 'digitally snoop' people's cameras or computers for compromising shots of them. I currently have semi-nude photos of both long-term ex-girlfriends' sisters, one of an ex's dad and mom, and one of an ex-housemate. I can't bring myself to delete them even though I know what I'm doing is wrong.

10) I like to think I'm a competent lover, who's particularly good at foreplay. I love to tease girls with massage, kisses all over, especially the neck, and don't mind giving head; even on one night stands. Given a little instruction or helping hand, I always make sure a girl has come once or twice from head and hand-work, before I go to penetrative sex.

11) Because of the hangup I have about drunk girls, I have fooled around with a lot of girls in this way, but don't count them as girls I've slept with as penetrative sex didn't happen. I really wish I'd follow up on these 'half one night stands' as I'm sure that a second actual
round would often be on the cards.

12) I'm not 100% confident with my body at the moment. I've let myself go a bit and I think this now affects my confidence with women. As a result, lots of girls just see me as a good friend, whereas I've seen them as initial attraction, waited too long to make a move due to this hangup and ended up in 'friend town.'

13) Despite being what I've been reassured is slightly above-average dimensions downstairs, I can't help but wish for a bigger penis. I really want my penis both longer and thicker, and have seriously looked into ways to enlarge it.

14) I don't really like getting head. Only one of my girlfriends has been really good at it, and only one has let me come in her mouth.

15) I'm into soft bondage, with tying up each other with a tie or scarf, or I'll hold down their hands using one of mine. Girls drive me nuts when they nibble and gently bite me, or scratch me down my back when I'm on top.

16) The best sex I ever had was with the girl I cheated on my first girlfriend with. It sounds harsh, but to finally realise that everyone has sex differently, and the fact the sex was dirty, sexy, lustful sex, meant it was the most mindblowing experience. I felt like absolute crap afterwards due to the cheating fact.

17) I'm always keen to try new things and keep an open mind in regards to sex. I also like to think I push my partners' sexual boundaries. I'll try anything once.

18) Although I won't have sex with a girl much drunker than myself, sex on drugs is a completely different story. Sex on ecstasy is amazing, and when both me and a girl are on it, I have great sex.

19) I like a girl who talks dirty and plays a little bit submissive. I love a girl who takes control and plays dominant.

20) I've had a fair bit of anal sex with my various partners. I don't think it's always as amazing as most guys seem to make it out to be, and if the girl is uncomfortable I'll stop. Nothing is sexy about a girl in pain.

21) Although I'm quite open and willing to experience, there's stuff that I haven't been able to do. I'd love to have a threesome (both MMF and FFM), an orgy, and a bit more bondage.

22) I masturbate a lot and watch quite a lot of porn. Sometimes I think I spend too much energy masturbating when I could be putting the time and energy into seeing regular sex partners. Sex is always better with another person.

23) I'm intrigued by tantric sex, and wish I could find someone to help me to learn as I think it'd be much better than learning from a book.

24) I'm always commited to safe sex especially seeing as I haven't got a permanent sexual partner. It's more to stop the STIs rather than pregnancy, but that said, 'Knocked Up' scared the crap outta me.

25) I seriously think I'm at the point of my life where I'm happy to be single and experience the smorgasbord of life and sexual experience. A lot of my close friends are getting engaged and the like, and I'm completely opposite to that and very comfortable with that fact. I'm sure I'll eventually want to settle down but for the moment I'm happy with where I'm at.

I am sitting in the Plaza de Armas using the free wi-fi kindly provided by the city of Queretaro, Mexico to write this message to you out there in Blogger Land. My dad, sitting right next to me and using a Windows based computer (an Acer, it seems) can't pick up the signal that I'm getting. Computers are mysterious.

The photos on this page are from the nearby Plaza Zenea, where they have very cool displays of the Garden of Eden and Hell. I mentioned this last time, but now I've got photos to prove it! You can click on the photos to see them bigger if you want, by the way.

Also in the photos you can see a little friend I picked up at a toy stall here. I am calling him Gayzilla because he is so very festive and pink. I find pink festiveness to be very gay and happy, full of light-heartedness and merriment. Of course, as my friend Leilani pointed out, he may be a she (or perhaps trans-gendered! Don't want to leave anyone out!). But that doesn't make her (zir?) any less full of light-heartedness and merriment, so the name sticks!

What can I tell you about Mexico? I don't really have anything at all to report about the Zen scene here. I don't even know if there is one. But I didn't come here for the Zen. I came here to hang out with my dad, who is down here (see first paragraph).

The Hell display is intriguing. It gets a lot more traffic than the Eden display next to it. I've noticed that the rock scene in this city seems to be very oriented towards metal, the more satanic the better. Maybe there's a connection. The city's seemingly lone record store -- called Rockland, I believe -- seems stocked mainly with metal. Though they do have a healthy selection of punk and prog rock.

I also saw some metal/punk bands playing outdoors on the town square last night. One band played Judas Priest's "Breakin' The Law" and the old Them chestnut (via The Doors, I'm guessing from the singer's Doors T-shirt) "Gloria" with lyrics in Spanish. Another band played the Pistols' version of Eddie Cochran's "Something Else," also with Spanish lyrics. Those guys had two foot tall mohawks all around. At one point I caught a whiff of something that smelled like modeling glue and realized it was coming from one of those guys' hair! My friend Mike Mohawk used to use shellac to keep his mohawk up. So maybe glue works too.

This is a very religious country. Or at least a country in which the outward displays of religious-ness are highly valued. The place we're staying is decorated with crosses everywhere you look. The taxi drivers display pictures of Jesus on their dashboard. Both the friendly guy who drove us to the local Wal Mart (ugh! not my idea!) at a normal pace and the surly guy who drove us back to town like a deranged maniac had Jesus on display.

I don't really know what to make of it all. I can't speak enough Spanish to get any sense at all of what this stuff means to anyone here. The presence of so much satanic metal imagery along side all the religious stuff gives me some kind of hint. It seems like the younger people take pleasure in flaunting their irreverence for what the priests have taught them. I wonder if they ever have religious folk protesting the metal shows the way we do up North.

All right. My dad wandered off so I better go fetch him.

See ya!

Yesterday, my dick got hard from a phone call. Remember N, the married Latin dude? No, not the married Cuban security guard. His name is...uh...uh...Well, I can't remember, but not him. This married Latino appears sucking my dick in the September 19th entry entitled Latin Connection. To recap, he and I have been infrequent fuck buddies for a few years (maybe 3). He doesn't kiss, but he does like to fuck. More than anything, his voice makes me crazy. I'm not one to get overly excited about guys. I'm experienced, I've been around the block a lot and it's sometimes just all the same. Some bigger, some taller, some smaller, whatever. But this guy stands out because of his voice. It's like listening to a slower-speaking, deeper-voiced Antonio Banderas. I think I amuse him and catch him off guard when I betray just how attracted to him I really am. For instance, I told him yesterday that I've moved closer to Maverick Square, which is close to where I saw him walking with a small boy (his son?) about 1.5 months ago. He asked if I was sure it was him. I answered, "trust me, man. I would recognize you anywhere." He thought this was funny and I was rewarded by a laugh so sexy it made my dick jump (I'd already been sporting wood since I saw his name come up on my caller ID). Outwardly, I had to walk away from my mom (we were in the grocery aisle and I was helping her push the cart and load it with food for a post Christmas dinner with family. When he called I just left her standing there - hahaha). Inwardly, I was running through the store stripping off my clothes in order to leapfrog onto N's dick until I worked a load out of him. Like a teenage boy, I told him that I think about him a lot, but I don't call because I know his schedule is hectic (and he's married, fool - duh). He said he thinks about me too and we'll see more of each other in the new year. *Sigh* "Woooooouldn't iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit beeeeeee lovelllllly? LOVELLLLLLLY?"

The pics above are of my morning wood (soft and hard) from a few weeks back.


Check the tatts on THIS fukker.

Happy Boxing Day! Just a short picture post before I go off to play Mahjong!!




Well of the six slices of melon 3 were ultra sweet and the other 3 super not sweet. Worth half the price.


Had time to kill before watching Avatar 3D so we just sat around on at the open area on top of Vivo... People-watching with the giant Xmas tree in front of us. I love that place! It's so big and windy... :)

On a sidenote, Avatar was not bad but I seriously hated the 3D glasses. Gave me a splitting headache!! I hated it when the background is blurry!

And the glasses kept hitting my eyelashes (no, it doesn't mean the lashes are too long, it simply means my nose is too flat), so imagine... for 3 hours I had to HOLD the glasses!! Looked like a retard.




Xmas Eve dinner at Gillian's... Well technically Gillian's parents' place. Had a fab time with Rozz (new blog), Zin, Joan and of course our hosts Gillian + Bryan! The food and company were just spectacular.


Melt in your mouth roast beef... Goodness knows where Auntie Tan gets her crazy good food from, but wow!


Banquetish waiters were all around and all the table tops were done with super professional looking settings!


Gillian and Joan... I might have shocked Joan with a dirty joke. Oh well, she's heard too many to be shocked anymore HAHAHA



After the yummeh dinner we adjoin to the basement for lounging around and guess what we found!! Gillian's baby photos!!


Hahaha Rozz said she was an ugly child!! Why last time she so black now she so fair and chio one wtf!!!

At 11++ Mike and I left to go to Ben's place...

We arrived to be clouded in popper smoke. -_- It was midnight! Merry Xmas everyone!!!


It was safari themed, which explained my leopard print dress and Ben's ridiculous head gear. And that's Jason before he got uber drunk and forced everyone to drink.


Junne said she took the most unglam photo of me, wiping the side of my mouth. Still chio LOLOL see Jason likes it.




Xmas day itself we just relaxed at home... Momo called and asked us what we are doing (nothing), so she came to my place with my Aunt in tow... AND MADE DUMPLINGS!!!



Nom nom nom! Mad delicious and full of motherly love!!!


I had a wonderful Xmas! What about you guys?