sex warehouse

Copyright 2011 Shilo McCabe

I masturbate therefore I am. It’s a philosophical discussion really. I feel alive when I masturbate. I masturbate for sanity. I masturbate persistently but not consistently. I sometimes masturbate five times in a day and sometimes go five days without. It’s relaxation, meditation, and pornification all rolled into one for me. I love how my masturbation fantasies have evolved for me over time. I remember when a threesome was a wild fantasy. Now, it can be anything from octopus bondage to extreme abduction scenes. Of course, there’s always room for gentle realities to stimulate my libido. Oftentimes I use toys, the N’joy Eleven as seen in the photo, the Betty Dodson Barbell, and of course my beloved Hitachi to name a few favorites, but it’s also interesting to simply use the hands.

Speaking of which, I had a dominant hand wrist injury last year and had to learn to masturbate entirely with my weaker hand. I would stroke myself in frustration, sometimes leading to tears. It brought me to an amazing self-discovery on how dependent I had become on my own “dominance”. The toppy behavior that had brought me many profound experiences and loves was beginning to impede me from deeper connection. So the psychological work that occurs from unburying parts of our selves is paramount to my masturbation.

Sometimes I will get a Proustian moment, a sexual memory, whether difficult or beautiful and I can allow it to be or I can reform it into a sexually empowering experience. Of course, even the straight up pornographic masturbations can bring excellent results. Being aware of my carnal needs and then fulfilling them has been a blessing in helping me evolve into the independent and sexually self confident woman I am. I masturbate to relax, to play, to laugh and to enjoy life! I love masturbating my partners also, watching their expressions, how their bodies respond, and taking them to the edge and back again delights me to no end. In the end, whether I masturbate for relaxation, meditation, or pornification, I masturbate, donc, je suis.        -Eve Minax